I fucking hate my mind, and I hate my fucking thoughts. How I over think, over analyze every single thing. You can say “Hi” to me and I would turn it into the most negative thing ever. I’m so sad, so incredibly sad, and so alone. But I like to be alone, why can’t I wrap my mind around that. I am so fucking sad, and it’s consuming me like a whole, and I hate saying I’m depressed, I hate saying I’m sad, I hate crying at 3 in the morning because my thoughts are never ending. I hate it so much.. I hate writing text posts on my tumblr about this bullshit because I don’t want anyone to know about this and about how I feel and honestly who the fuck cares? but I can’t stop myself, i need to let it out somehow because at times i get these headaches and they make it feel like my brain is about to explode. It hurts and I just wish I could find something that could make me happy, something that could pull me out of this hole I’m in, because it fucking sucks. It hurts, and I’m so tired of hurting. Sometimes I want to just run away from this life but I know that’s not realistic and I have to deal with the shit I have to deal with. But it fucks me up man, and sometimes It’s just so fucking painful and I can’t take it. I can’t fucking take it. I am so sad.